baby bulimia

help me fellow mommies.

it's seems my once sweet daughter is now the queen of the temper tantrum.

yesterday, she threw a 40 minute screaming fit b/c i wouldn't nurse her when she woke up from her afternoon nap (i have only been nursing in the am/pm for a month now). during this tantrum, she writhed on the floor and cried. these are the thoughts that ran through my mind during those agonizing minutes:

1. i ruined her by giving her the 1-year vaccinations
2. she was about to have a seizure
3. satan had possessed her and i needed an exorcist
(that comes from being raised by a born-again christian mom)

it wasn't until i gave in and nursed her that i realized she had totally been playing me. she has thrown about 5 smaller tantrums since yesterday afternoon, and now i just walk away and let her scream. is that what i'm supposed to do?

BUT, today, she learned how to gag herself. sitting at the table, after a nicely shared morning snack, she started sticking her fingers down her throat. (and, for those of you who know us, both adam and i have extraordinarily long fingers which this little darling inherited.) she threw up all over herself. then she did it again. and again. i said, "No, Alexandra..." and she did it again. i was FREAKING THE EFF OUT. she was covered with puke. so i got up and ignored her. (thinking: ignore bad behavior to stop it. sounds logical, right?), finally she stopped. i was near hysterical. i had to take a serious dose of rescue remedy.

WTF?

everyone i know has boys, so i need some advice here from any girl-moms. is this high drama normal?? i'm feeling so depressed and incompetent and i'm totally pms-ing which just adds to it all (i have the worst pms since being pregnant! i cried at the closing credits for the olympic trials last sunday!).

shit, i think she's puking herself again now in her crib.
shoot. me. now.